LAST

Time passes so fast like happy ending will then last
A breezing wind, spiral sand like gold dust
To make a fuss on the friends you make, its the past
the many bestfriends come and go, eventually one will last
the many boyfriends you have, none will last a simple trust
an intrepretation of bestfriend love,a boy will ridicule the partner aghast
and thus,
a bestfriend is torn apart by a fucker and by her stupidity
she left me alone to tend my misery
like her fucking boyfriend is more fun then what we've been doing
she got no mind of her owin and did things like he owns everything
a bond is bruised and it'll take more than a simple sorry
coz sorry aint enough as i had found a new glory
A friend is born
much different from your mimed emotion which left me torn
my concern for you has worn out coz i shifted my dedication to the one
the one who doesnt have a dick
the one who cared and the one i always seek
the one who has a mind of her own and isnt weak
and the one who thinks having a boyfriend isnt neccessary
sh soaks laughter in my adversaries
and thinks highly of me no matter what democracy
and puts me first on her list among everything else
we learnt alot from each other
in within or outside our box of intelligence
a walking distance is too easy
a despondent state can be a laughter of craziness
she's everything i've witness
Sab,
We're the Soul Askars. This is war!

190306
16:15

Grudge

A legitimate affair/an ultimate freedom,who cares?/its not a mistake i made/nor its the rice bowl i ate/Grudges bending on this blistering social life still goes on till date/whats more to wait,its a damn waste of time so my patience left laid/im sorry miss,its too late for your pathetic icebreaker as fate as turned to a debate/you wanna rate my ignorance,lets see how i fuck your mate!/you fucking fake bitch,the games you've played is a fucking piece of cake/like you're somekind of a BIG FUCK/look around you! so many mirrors just look at yourself into one/and if you see what i saw,then my job's done/go have fun/Huh.

190306
15:51

This Is For You, BITCH

its been a long time since i rhyme/my anger is disembarked and its time/i hate wad im feelin rite now/feelin abt wastin my time goin to skool/wen all i worry about is money/ha.its funny/that i dun give a hoot abt money or education/its abt owning and losing my own posession/shit things happen coz every month i had to pay 45 bucks for train concession/wad is skool wen all i tink is "Pay School Fees",and its not even the end of semester yet but they're released the lease/please,whats diz?/its like paying school fees but givin skool a miss/wads the point of skool wen u do ur own hw and the rest juz copy,"Sue,i dunno how to do my report, give me ur floppy"/"Dude, me too man but i go crazy researchin' on the Net to do diz report. Do u even try?"/Kinda feelin' crappy,wen all i tink dat skool is more impt than my health/try my best to tink how skool cud bring me to great wealth/but rite now, im sittin down here in lecture hall, in absolute stealth/aint listenin to the lecture mind's in terrible havoc, tinkin for once abt myself/i tryna werk to support myself 24/7 /but ppl kept using me for my pay/im not selfish wif money coz it'll never make my day/but FUCK YOU, doesnt mean im paid, u can take advantage of me as u may/dats not the way/my Dad dont believe i cud cope wif it,wen i ask "Wh0's gonna pay $355 every semester?", he shuts his mouth/damn it, ppl juz dun believe in me, but I DO SO QUIT IT/i can do it, i know i cud and i dun shit it/u dun like see me achievin, I DUN GIVE A FUCK, so live with it/u cant change me, so stop it i tink u've had enough/wen u go up north and u see me, u went back down south/WHY? u tink i tink im tough?/YOU made me tink u tink i tink im tough, so be it, I AM!/get it? No? suckers!,i've screwed u, u tried to fucked me up, den i shut up, u go mute/im through,i tried to render other peeps' feelings,i tink i shud/but if u help me out, im pissed, i tink i cud/and if u cooperate with me so u hope i'll b nice to u, AS IF I WOULD

fuckin' fucks

I tot not givin a fuck to the environment ard me will decrease all the fucks in my life/but the fact that im keepin my mouth shut will only give my anger more jive/mayb the absence of my slappin controversy did not make you stay alive/but when i open my mouth, u started complainin/like im some kind of a machine functionin for your satisfaction/all the fucks that came out of your mouth abt me never damage my strong poise/the anger you're juz released becoz of my personality, u've shown me you've just lost/my feelings have become numb/all the werds in the world, the sentences u've learnt, the unintelligent remarks u've repeated/made to spite me catalyze no reaction!

Random

He released a certain cuteness when he smiles,
Jokes around wif me when disparagement, in a certain antagonised mood, he'll make me laugh
When he stare at me in the eye, my heart flutters for a while
Without seeing him for a day can make me go wild
exhausting my strength i would run a mile
but rendering in emotion, my heart bleeds in silence i would cry
For this perfect guy, he already has a gal

Bastards

I know she's much prettier than me,
but never will i let her beuaty be my inferior
and nor will be my personality
because of you, i never dare to look myself into the mirror
as the reflection will only bring heartache to the soul
the werds emitted frm your mouth are just so foul
it hurts so much only to ask myself if im human
feelings are already like a source of abuse coz now the world's different
i know everything i say just irritates you
every mistake i made just frustrates you
everytime my help for you is initiate, you turn me down
whatever i do just makes you frown
like im a big clown in town
your constant deprecation of me because of my looks has become so profound
i am not blind nor am i an idiot
you're just another pretty face bastard

To all the bastards who lie,
who thinks they're fly
To all the bastards who makes mistakes,
who dont know how to apologize,
who dont give a damn,
who are fake
To all the bastards who think he got a whole wide fan
who avoids problems,
who gives pathetic smiles while he run
To all the bastards who tink he's just some pretty face,
Fuck You All
Your looks just leaves your brain to waste.

Manipulated

The last recall of a manifore/I drunk my ass off thinking about wad u did to me before/you have brought me to love you some more/and im crazy about you really hard to the core/why am i feeling this way about you?/why do you have to hug me too?/why do you have to put your muscular arms around me?/and put me in question, why dont u let me be?/my emotions have been beguiled/and wad i tink of u have been exaggerated/love me or hate me, i cant give you hatred/and it seems that God, we're not fated/Man, damn this feeling/Damn, im never so pretty/damn im too weak for this/damn you for cheating me at the least/im pissed/fuck u and ur great bod/fuck u and ur tanned skin/fuck u and ur pretty boy face/fuck u and ur brilliant irresistable smile/i feel so neglected and just wanna break down and cry/i wanna get over u and guess what? I'll try..

27 Dec 2004 - Allah is warning us

the signs of anger from the One above/showin his emotions to the country we loathe/diminishin his own creations/relievin the heartened soul of the pure innocence/lives claimed by the turbulent violence/destroyin all our family and the inventions/maybe all diz has come with an intention/Aceh, Penang, Indonesia, Mauritius, Maldives/Islamic countries affected by the waves/buildings destroyed but Muslim mosques still standin strong among the caved,the people dat we lost, we raved/the people we hate are saved/the bond binded are paved/wad is He tryin to tell us diz timeis it the end of the world, its revined/tryna warn us for the sins for us to unwind/to dutifully follow his ways, he assigned/let's all get ourselves together and rewind/enjoyin, partyin and livin aint matter to us no more/coz we're leavin this world, wad are u waitin for?/its time for us to reflect and find the ways to forgive the things we corrupted b4/ignorance aint bliss the good are dead/do you get this into your thick head?/u dun noe wads your Fate/do something good and go to the sufferers' aid/Please dun go to your defenses/dun try to give busy excuses/give it up and come to your senses/its time for u to give up 5 minutes of your time to complete the 5 sessions/its compulsory/its a must, not an advisory/do it in the name of Allah/in His honorary/im startin my life, Islamic way/come join me now, wad do u say?/im correctin my ways and so shud you..Start a new day, my new life with "Bismillah,"

this rhyme is for the Muslims. no intentions intended in this rhyme. comemorate world peace people. help each other regardless of race or religion.

you deserve better

Shidah, you told him you were meetin your bestfren/i was there when u told him dat/he asked u where you were goin but u refused to tell him/when i urged you to tell him ur whereabouts, you went mad/wad u take me for, bitch, your cat?/fuck it, u tink u're so pretty, got a handsome bf and a wallet so fat/WHAT?! you think im scared?/do i look like i fuckin care?/me, Jon and the others decided to go downtown/but were shocked to have 14 pair of eyes, disbelieved of wad we've found/to tink dat Jon thinks of you every single day when he's away/all for a fuckin bitch, who he loved so dearly/a strong heart he'd been holding so longin/for this cheatin rich bitch/watever you haf done to him, congratulations, u made his cheeks wet/never haf i seen him cry dat bad/it's wasted, Jonny dearest, i juz dunno wad to say/ahaha...rather den being straight and date a fuckin bitch, better be gay/dat nite bro, shit, wad a day/dat nite, in downtown, we saw u bitch, makin out wif another guy!/Shidah, u hurt him gurl, fucker, u dun even noe what has been happenin behind/hurt, afflicted by grieve, he dropped down to his knees/knockin on the cemented floor with his fist, tryna make a bloody wish/a wish that he knew will never come true/so fuck you/its time for him to give you up and time for you to confess/u dunno havin a guy like him dat u're blessed/i shudnt haf done dat to you dat nite but i tink it's for the best/im through wif you, now its time for me to kick your ass/i pushed you to the ground, scraped and bloodied your pretty face/if u wanna befriend me, diz isnt the pace/u tryna fite me back but when u see my bitchier face, u're scared,diz aint a race/a plastic basket case, wad a waste/suddenly feelin so timid and such a pathetic brat"Su..please..su..." beggin like a fuckin rat/u deserve the push, SLUT!u cheated on my bestfriend, time for ya to kiss my goddamn big butt/look into the fuckin mirror, Shidah, u make a mess out of things/Jon's a great guy, i hate to see him like diz/we're pissed/to hurt you even more, i rather give it a miss/but you made me so angered, why are u doing this??/u deserved the treatment, u tink i like wad im doin?/i cant bear to see Jon hurt/for in diz world/there are no werds/to describe how we love him more den u, u twert..we haf never hurt him this bad/u are in no position to place him in this situation/he's flying back early to Australia and do u noe how much i miss him?/diz isnt some kind of a joke, he's makin a decision/his good golden heart ruptured into two insicion/its all ur fault bitch, his kind is too few/we all hate you whore, and i damn well hate you too..so go to hell, keep makin out at the beach/and i hope u are engulfed by tidal wave, tsunami will hit you dead..

New Year Rhyme

Rub shoulder to shoulder/givin kisses cheeks to cheeks/new year resolution, rite up the road's shoulder/new year revolution, overcomin the path's boulder/kids gettin wad they wanna, ppl's gettin bolder/the die hard, press play, new day, a brand new year, new cheques/move aside ppl, mizzhaily comin wif a rhyme for the year,gettin ready to kick the asses for all the wacks/2 double-O 6, i've been smellin armpits but now im back/so its time for ya to smell my fart,oh haha fuck it/juz smell it until my pants gonna rip!let it rip, you twit/watever ur side on, i win/smashin my ass back, its a sin/beggin my eyes wet, i aint keen/energized and refreshed, muscular coordinations intact/stronger and healthier in fact/total respect for you im lacked/partyin and werkin all nite, im shagged/spendin my fuckin new year behind the cashier/in counter/its 10pm on the clock and ive makin a bloody blunder/my hands aint stable, i shudder/handlin cash, its scarier than bein a bartender/while on the job, met an American fucker/walk is unstable, red-faced drunken ass sucker/spray H20 behind the counter sayin," Happy New Year,baby!"staggerin behind, laughin like an idiot, my shirt's wet/fuck it, im wearin white"Ooh! Baby! You're wearin whites?" /"Fucker, take a hike!"put on a brand new white tee/im dry and fake smile set, aint there's nothin to b scared off nothin to see/sprayin fake snow in the club/hey, there's no snow in singapore!/spray the fuckin foam! watcha waitin for?/for christmas?goddamn its over..look at that whore/she's wearin wad she came in before!/haha!sucker..she aint got nothin to wear coz her dress suck to the core!/went to Island bar, met up with another cashier,exchange some change..lost in the shore/im being dramatically careless, i stubbed my toe sore/gave an embarrasin yelp, everybody's lookin includin the guy i adore/goddammit! i run for my life..aint no wantin to worsen the condition more/4am on the clock, club's still full/"Hey Su, we're goin back at 6!" Man, dats bull!/It's the new year, no worries im cool/damn it, missed my bestfriend on a new year, im such a fool/go back to werk, cheap, leave diz to me i need a sleep/sayonara good nite everybody happy new year peepz..
Im BEAT

When enough is enough

i just find it sick coz people find me pathetic/ im too strong for you, u just find me so weak/ i've been stupid before but why am i doing this again/u keep doin this to me, u tink its fun to victimise my heart with pain?/ur execrable disrespect is drivin me insane/coz watever i do to you is unappreciative/i rather make myself weak in the solemnising rain/den wait for u to meet me up in vain/at least waitin for the rain in drought is worth it/den the friendship i waste my time to keep/dat u haf effortlessly nullifed/diz has put me in a detonated emotion/if u ever thought of fuckin me up again/think again coz i had enough of how i've been treated/i have never felt so abominated/to a someone i thought i wud really care/i wasnt given the benefit of the doubt and it isnt fair/coz im just stoopid enough to reject the "good ppl are rare."
so beware..

On My Own

The first song I made with a music and a singer..

Verse 1:
I fantasize the look you've given me, in your eyes
And believe me deep down inside, I've thought of your lies
But everytime I turn my back on you, I've finally realise
That you see, you're not the one for me for the troubles you've caused in me...

c/o:
Hopes and dreams..I've finally found a way to believe in me
Of all the painful steps that I have gone thru diz alone
To find a way to set myself, high and free

Verse 2:
I'm blessed with great plesures happened in my life
All the words in the world could I ever described
The burning feeling...Let me show you what I'm thinking!
Right now,You see, I'm ready to tell you the truth
That I cud stand on my on two feet, cause I dont, need you, anymore..

Repeat c/o:-

T.L.C.

Dark clouds envelops the dark sky/grey,angry clouds hoverin the nite/thunders clappin in joyous flight/lightnin streakin the nite alite/feelin small,fearful and absolutely cold/a comfortin warmth blanketin over me/smelt of warm, familiar perfume filled my nostrils/there,the love of my life,strong and bold/put her arms over me, makin me comfy/rockin me to comfort and her warm voice filled my ears/wonderful sweet voice singin me to calmness/suddenly,the world doesnt exist anymore/its only me and her alone in diz world/the thunder and lightnin doesnt look so scary anymore/whenever and wherever, she'll always be here with me protectin me/its not a dream/thunders crashin out the windows,and im not alone..

this is dedicated to my late grandma, Khizaimah Binti Naib (23101939 - 22052006) ..She'll always be missed and be loved. I love you, nyayi.you're the greatest.

Inspirations

Some people are too eager to travel the longest distance in the shortest time/its impossible in the quickest time to do a meaningful rhyme/but i tell dat small beginnin only inspire you to think big/datz how u finish wad u want to achieve/dats ur goal/and juz b4 people started buildin realli strong teams/they need to know wads in their talent pool/better show your talents out but,dear,beware/there are many reactions and alotta changes from u/and ur frens btwn the rough cut and the final print/build tolenrance to lighten your heavy load/cuz the perfect picture is worth a thousand mediocre werds/like a trust dat shines a bright beam thru ur darness/try by agreein to first understand others/for ur inner lawyer might stop cross-examining bewildered witness/its time for a welcome recess/thanks for everythin and thanks for readin diz!

Love Makes Me Bitchin'

my werds left unsaid/i lay here at one corner in the dark, my bed's unmade/i tried to open my mouth and let the werds come out/and let the ground open for free flow/i swear to you at the bottom of my heart you're good and i do love you/but the one i love left me dissin and pissed/cuz i broke his sweet little heart up and about/i was slapped wif his werds cuz he's hurt and i feel real low/in diz corner, i feel like shit/im so sorry, i am being such a bitch/im feelin the cruelty creepin up/
when i broke up wif him, i thought of him
when i took my 'O's i thought of him
when i got a job, i thought of him
when i got my O level result i thought of him
when im admitted to a new school, i thought of him
when an e-mail wif his name on it usin the Net to search for me,i feel so bad cuz now i still think of him
the empty times i've wasted/the ultimate im sure i've tasted/now im tastin diz shit/i've pushed him outta my way, imma bitch, im busted/cryin like a freakin sicko/even my bestfren wouldnt give me a hicky/now im seeing diz and im learnin from it/all diz im given is just a little bit/in diz blank space/i lay my thoughts in a length casket/my werds left unsaid/my gut got fascade/my thoughts well-said/swear to me, a one time oath/say a prayer to the One above/to the one you care/cuz the dead changin the dove/your heart's empty so wads there to shove?/you're burnin verbal rainim left to rot and die in pain/im pickin up my game/once again, in diz confined place/wif so many people to face/the incoherent miasma in the air/conspicous defiance dat i wud share/in diz contemplated feelings of anger/no rule, no believes in lovin tender/fuck the feel of the love's sender/rite from the top/hatin the mushy vociferations dat wouldnt stop/a new country will be born on the map/the world of contentment
diz song is dedicated to my ex-bf? i think...Haha...Damn it...Love Sucks

Confessions

although im not in the best of my moods/frens cum to me for rectifyin advices/although diz may sound a bit crude/but i hate listenin to all the shit dat happen to their life/listenin to their stoopid probs,its burnin my ass/sittin there firing my ears complainin at their side/im confessin/i hate to listen like i give a bloody shit abt wads been happenin/its not dat i give a fuck dat their girlfren's heart they'd been breakin/its nice for you to tink dat i care/but i dun if i know you dun exist here/i can explain to you all fuckers usin my flair/listenin to your problems is not wad i cud bear/im confessin/i hate you people whom i called frens,you've been blabberin/about me being a bitch, thanks dats very flatterin/givin me the loser look, dats very appealin/your attitude towards my creativity makes me bitchin/stop the pathetic confrontations coz im lovin dis/i hate all these people im meetin and you're in my hate-list/fanatically egoistic, before callin me names, give my huge ass a kiss/dumbass mother-freak think they're so big/only the time when i give you a piece of my mind, den you'll freak/im confessin/i hate people who said they're appreciatin my werk/sayin dat i cud be a freakin writer, juz give me a break/freakin liar i got as frens/callin me freakin poseur and a wannabe brand/jealousy has ripped through their remotely useless hearts/not like some people i truly understand how ya feelin like readin a damn chart/haha!being jealous of me is a common thing to see/i knoe im good and im wae better den you/i can write songs wif my mind broad, wide and free/like swimmin freely in the sea/wad im confessin here are all true/im bringin back are all my bad memories and all the blues/its history but it keep repeatin itself/all along i haf been hidin my feelings in the shelf/but now, i am smarter den dat/i am ultimately better, im fresh, werds of venge in my brain gettin a lil' fat/burstin to be released of all the resention/here are my confessions

Alone

Stammerin wif werds spillin my mouth,vocabulary diminishin in my mind/cant say it out loud but i like to take back wads mine/my heart's aint opein'/bullshit things happen in my life ain't leavin'/wad can i do to make these go away/my life has gone awry/my mind's gone array/my heart's startin to expitiate/i cannot take dis anymore of dis shit/i want to run away, far away from here/but nowhere to go and its the outside world i fear/may God bless me...
Bro dear,To look at the bright side/and open your heart wide/build up the courage for you heart to fight/like releasin anger through the wall caging me/crushin the brick walls releasin you free/open yourself wif the outside world/alotta things you're seein dat you're not quite sure/its rewardin to set your eyes onto the little things, unnoticed/learn to be bold and strong/bow down to the Sun as if its a prayin priest/wonderful it may seemed but it has all gone wrong/lost again in the busy throngs/comin back to reality, im the shithead here...I'm sorry...
This song is dedicated to my bro, Hao...remember i wrote diz song in tutorial room...the day you broke down and when everything in your world iz just isnt rite. the day you think people were lookin down at you and ignored you..hell, bro..u dun know how much people cared about you. the best thing in the world that has happened to me is knowin you as my bro...im sorry whatever i did to you to make you so small and weak inside..its not meant to be..you're a great guy and i know you dun deserve it..love you loads bro and miss you ALOT!!

Cold

lookin at medieval timesfear surrounded me/unscrupulous thoughts conquerin my evil mind/havin alota frens dont make my heart break free/dark forces release me in angst against the silky fines/why do people tink i posseses no feelings?/treatments malignarin towards the ultimate being/show unfair the world it is, justice is dyin'/impeccable hints, knockin my heart stone cold/secrets shared amongst the morons haf unfold/my heart's gettin harder, makin it worse/im gettin INTELLECTUALLY SAGACIOUS, sadistically im cursed/if people really hate me so much, why cant i die first?/i looked into the mirror, why i turned away so fast?/i hate the reflection, my whole life gone spontaneously combust/no wonder intimidation of violence progressin in vast/exploitation of tolerant test is negligible/implication of thories are irreversible/hell break lose if my patience atested

Family Love

the comfort of pure loneliness lingers
independence took control of thee life
warmth and full of love heatin through my fingers
happiness of rare emotions motionin to strive
God knoes how im feelin inside
someone i love came home, sleepin aside
mom took a break from werk and stays aride
God bless me and His people with so much love
from the earth down here, to the gone above
looks like im not dat of an unlucky soul
to the injustice of diz unpredictable world
wad is love without a family?

Pullin' Me Away

i dont know how i ended up sittin wif a bunch of smart-ass intelligent writers
every week, i haf to mit up with 'em and endure an hour of torture
i dont know was im doing there, my head'z goin lighter
im not a background crew, im a fighter
i keep writin shit lines to keep my mind blazin
firin werds to rhyme and put it into paper and pen (in diz case its e keyboard!), werds flamin
wen im writin(or typin), my heart beats up to 200 beats per minute
secluded by reelin and powerful emotions
understandin the moment of my devotions
i will keep writin lyrics until i reach my standard expectations
practicin' is the only key to my ultimate success
but why am i puttin my brain to rest?
the longin musical werds have gone surpressed
why am i sittin behind dat table tryin very hard to write scripts?
brainstormin the script's undesirable boring bits
these are gettin on my nerves
i am not meant to be there
im not practicin, i'm losin all my curves
diz cannot be happenin,God! Diz isn't fair
i've been pulled away from my talent
to redirect my skills, only to find out how much i've fallen
where is mizzhaily who always keep the balls rollin?
i cant continue writin scripts,its so boring
my rhyme's gettin pretty lame, im admittin
sorry i need to work on diz
give me sumthin good at, please
dont pull me away from sumthin i love to do
give me a chance
sorry,the patience in me is limitin
i dun noe why i didnt tell you before
i guess i tot i will start freakin
if my dreams and talent becums ignored
but now i cant take it anymore
i haf to leave the group and join the rest.......
but im still in reality-sittin behind the table,mind's a terrible mess
tot of openin my bloody mouth and confess
but i chose not to coz im already one of em

Unscrupulous

The rhythmic litany prayer fallin upon my lips
Far more reachin, my feelings antoganized
Despondency arose from in within the ribs
Angst envelops in within my veins
I could feel the burning vengeance all rise
Beware of my devious sorry devised